God has been taking me through past "dings" in my past. Scars that hurt me or I hurt someone else and giving me the opportunity to forgive them or to ask for forgiveness. I went to a training that I had attended 3 years ago. I was ashamed when I realized it was the same instructor that I had some very harsh, rude words for. I had heavily criticized her speaking and she had overheard me. I had tried to give her some way to improve but it was just to cover how awful it was that I talked about her.
I saw her and knew this was my chance to apologize. I'd thought of my ugly words over the years and I felt humiliated by how horrible I acted. I apologized to her and asked her to forgive me. She said yes. I also complimented her on her speaking and what I enjoyed. I felt guilty but just kept reminding myself that Jesus blood covers my sins and I want to be changed.
I also realized that I'm human and relying on Jesus for my daily grace for my own faults and others faults is just a normal part of life. So forgiving and asking forgiveness should be more normal and focusing on Jesus is the way of staying washed in the blood.
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