starting point

I have my ticket to go to Peru on September 14, 2012 and from there I believe I will go to Bolivia, Chile, Argentina, Uruguay and then crew on a sailboat towards the Caribbean and then onto Europe. I plan to go for at least 2 years to the rest of my life. I'M SUPER EXCITED!!  

I can't wait to see what Jesus will do and where He'll lead me. It's going to be great! 

prepare with heart cleaning

God has been taking me through past "dings" in my past. Scars that hurt me or I hurt someone else and giving me the opportunity to forgive them or to ask for forgiveness. I went to a training that I had attended 3 years ago. I was ashamed when I realized it was the same instructor that I had some very harsh, rude words for. I had heavily criticized her speaking and she had overheard me. I had tried to give her some way to improve but it was just to cover how awful it was that I talked about her.

I saw her and knew this was my chance to apologize. I'd thought of my ugly words over the years and I felt humiliated by how horrible I acted. I apologized to her and asked her to forgive me. She said yes. I also complimented her on her speaking and what I enjoyed. I felt guilty but just kept reminding myself that Jesus blood covers my sins and I want to be changed.

I also realized that I'm human and relying on Jesus for my daily grace for my own faults and others faults is just a normal part of life.  So forgiving and asking forgiveness should be more normal and focusing on Jesus is the way of staying washed in the blood.

missionary? wow, I think that's right, Missionary!

Today I introduced myself to someone and gave my name and current employer, then I whispered, what I'm really doing soon is taking an adventure. I said I was going to start in Peru in September and take my guitar and talk about Jesus.  The guy smiled and exclaimed-"Missionary! You are a missionary, just say it!"  I paused and thought about it and realized that is right, I just hadn't thought about putting that name on it. So the next person at the meeting I talked to I used my new word, missionary. Pretty exciting.

Webster's says missionary is:

A person sent on a religious mission, esp. one sent to promote Christianity in a foreign country.

The free dictionary's definition is: 1. One who is sent on a mission, especially one sent to do religious or charitable work in a territory or foreign country. 2. One who attempts to persuade or convert others to a particular program, doctrine, or set of principles; a propagandist.  and their definition for Propaganda-

Material disseminated by the advocates or opponents of a doctrine or cause

Missionary-I thought I was just doing what God called me to do but there's a name for it.
I'm amazed. 

Jumping out of airplane

So I've been feeling like a child whose parent is directing them to move and pulling them by the hand. My hearts desire is to walk side by side God and do what He's telling me as He says to do it rather than lagging behind.
My fabulous Wednesday night friends prayed for me to make this transition.

One saw a picture of me jumping out of an airplane and experiencing the free falling feeling.  She said it was the RUSH of falling. She does not know my trip and blog are called moeby's rush adventure. It was after that that my parachute opened and slowed me down so that I could have a safe gentle landing.  The parachute was God.  I'm excited to jump!

I went home and packed up 3 bags of clothes to donate to Goodwill and lessen my load. I'm jumping. No more delays!

moeby's rush meaning

Moe is my nickname. B is the start of my last name. It's a Rush knowing Jesus and Adventure is great to travel.
so soon the journey will begin in 95 days!  I can't wait.
My house is a disaster as I prepare things to sell and to loan out and to walk away from.
It exciting thinking about not coming to this dreary place to do same same same every day.

lean into what you feel God is telling you

Heard an awesome speaker yesterday who has an infectious love of Jesus and of sharing Jesus. He shares where he goes and even spent 9 weeks in an Iranian prison for sharing the love of Jesus. It was great because he shared how down he felt, the waves of depression and how it was only Jesus who carried him.  
So even though I felt fear of this journey, I felt like I needed to take the first steps and just move forward. So today I felt like I needed to post my apartment on craigslist for subleting. I was looking at my email to see is the confirmation came thru and my sister emailed me a low fare alert from LA to Peru for a screaming deal.  So I posted it, bought a ticket to leave Sept 14 so that I am in Peru and can make it to the city that starts with a Ch by the 15th.
I was also approached by a friend to buy my freezer today too. Ok I get the message, it's time to go full-board toward the goal.